But the downside of all of this information is the reality that my new LFS friends, these oncological scouts, they are in this same conundrum. There are fears, concerns, disappointments and a beautiful fighting spirit. There is love. I witness much struggle, which even digitally, is hard.
These struggles become my struggles. And it all serves to remind me that while the Ramers are blessed in this moment, there are no guarantees. I would very much love to be on the other side of scans, which are on 10/14, for the reassurance they offer me for a time.
We have the wonderful distraction of ‘birthday season’ right now. Three of our children have birthdays within 6 weeks of one another. And I am certainly celebrating this. I am working hard on not allowing scanxiety and fear to creep in, and taint the gift we have in our medical quiet.
So, on Sunday, the Cleveland Browns played the Minnesota Vikings, and won. They had a rough 3rd quarter, but had some really promising plays with a 3rd string quarterback. You never can tell. It is only week four. Perhaps I should try to check my roster.